DREAM

Wow, my journal had been dusty....
Brush Brush.....here goes the clean and neat journal....^___^

I had been very stress lately......
I had got myself a job in my sis office.....
The worst....I have to key in the transaction.....
It is worst then thousand of Exam......
It took great responsibility and stuff.....
And it is stress......
I can't take it anymore....
Therefor i miss my job today....
haha...
I don't care if they scold me or talk behind my back...
I just want the money for my school fee and that done.....
Don't care anymore.....

hahahahahahahahaha........
I will post again............definitely!!!!!
Btw....I hope everything will be alright on the dec 13 tt will spare me from tt hell....

Today is the big day for our release of our result for our prelim....
It should be a joyful day yet....
It is all started yesterday when mrs err told yun fang about how well she had done for her chemistry and had improved a lot...
The biased teacher then come to me and said that i had dropped in my chemistry and she said that sentence: " I don't think you can get a distinction " and she walk away....
She is just utterly bias....
That why i don't really like her....
Continue with my story....
Yun fang was so happy that she had done well for her chemistry....then mrs err said another potential killer sentence: " I THINK you had done better than (me)...."
Yun fang went like crazy...
Yun fang than come to me and challenge me this morning...." I am going to win u also in physic" Right at my face, in front of everybody...
I just smiled and i could feel hydrochloric acid boiling in my body...how can she do that?
She just so proud that i felt like bashing her right on her face...so what if you score well....
Ha, my revenge come...
Today got double periods of physic lessons.....
Miss pay come and make us do corrections...you know...all those stupid correction when we don't have the paper...
Than, our class beg for our marks even though we can get the result right after recess...
Miss pay give in..
She went to staff room and print the result for the whole class...haha
Then, she come down and ask us to do more correction and then she tell the result to the whole class...
Well, i had obtained a lower score than yun fang......well....miss pay is quite disappointed...i went silent....everything was sad....
However, things change completely...
Miss pay suddenly announced that she had print the wrong result.....haha...such a young and cute teacher....love her no matter what...
In the end, i had obtained a 46/65 instead of 33/65 and yun fang? She got only 39/65...
hahaha.....i won~~~
I felt really happy at that moment cause it serve her right for being so arrogant...
But, she cried when i come back to class after recess....
It made felt so guilty and sad...
Have i done wrong??
Y everybody had blamed me for her own wrongdoings?
I did not challenge her at all....she is the one that brat about herself...
All in all, those who cried is the winner....
Unfortunately, i am not a crybaby.....
After all the sad things, i can't even felt happy when i got almost six distinction and one c6 for english......
Sigh....competition is a killer in my eng paper 1 part 1 and is a killer between my classmate....

 Finally.......
All major paper down....
Left guessing game....
Haha....today mood is better....
Cause i can balance my account...phew~
All the other question is like crap......
Physic is worse....i just watched the five marks flew out of my hand cuase i don't have time to finish....
The most i will get is some scolding from miss pay tt all....haha
So now, i will really focus on my major exam....mean less computer...sigh...
I decided tt i am going to buy the best album of TxT~~~~
Just need to think of some ways to get pass my parent....haha....
Eyes sawing now...cry the whole last night cause i m too stress about those two stupid exam....
Emotionally unstable now......
 

ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I cannot take it anymore!!!!!!!!
My maths paper is the toughest paper i ever done................
I felt really dejected now..........
Miss lim is so evil.....n matter how much i try.....i can't get the answer!!!!
Tears is rounding my eyes lids........
i want to shout it out!!!!!
T______________________________________________________________________________T
TxT.....where are u?
My mind is full of them....only they can heal the wound of my heart......

I  m thinking how i celebrate the anniversary for them........
I was lucky tt my sis ask me out for a movie.....haha....or else i will be roting at home......
On my way back home...i spot a bakery shop.....
The next thing i knew is tt i bought myself a piece of cheesecake.....so happy about it....
So, i finished my dinner and force down my beloved cheesecake....felt so joyful....

But all that is yesterday......

Now, i m stuck with this diaapointed and hateful feeling.....not angry...not sad but a funny werid feeling....sigh...FN tomorro...no confident at all....all the maths and CME fault... hate exam....
Just can't wait for two months more....just burn the school.... 

I love this one week break~~~~

It free me from the pile of books on my table and supply me the energy to recharge myself....
I am just a battery that need to "charge" myself........haha....

I just finished downloading the SP drama casted by Tackey...thanx to jaelyn.....love her...opps! hope she doesn't view my entry~~~
Btw, i didn't noe how to combine all the parts together....it need some glue???haha....can't wait to watch it....

It is going to be TxT special big day~~~
Want to teleport to japan to celebrate with them...haha.........
Felt so tired now...from all the TxT things....maybe i talk more in my next entry.....

It is nearly Autum~~~
Winter is cuming straight to my direction....
Yet seasons is not a word in the summer-all-round country i live in.....
However, i felt cold and sorrow cuming the way......
I missed my youth and my time in school....
It may be lonely, sad.......
But it is still the happiest time in my life so far.....
It is the time where i can be so energectic and persue my dream freely~~~
It is the only time where i can feel warm around me.....
I m scared of future.....seriously...
I know that i will grow up and think like those adult one day......so formal.....so seriouse....
I am scared tt i will turn into a slave for the society.......
I fighting against the flow of time with all the might i had.......in vain...
Time is merciless.....it is a current tt glide through us like skier across snow...
Not wanting to stop or hesistate.....
I love my secondary school life.....4 years is too fast and too short.....
My preciouse memories will be fading.....
Almost in tears.......i know tt it never ever be the same once time flow pass sept 13....
Things will change and my life will be turn over.....but all i can do is watch it slowly turn....
It is too much for me.....or is it?
I am just afraid of the changing of the season.......
Too worry for the result of change....will it be for better or will it be worse....
Life must go on......
Therefore, i am leaving as much thing in here to make me remember it one day in the future.....
Class will be separate.......but our bonds shall never disapear.....
Love all the people i noe so far now.....cherish the last moment of together and let us go in our separate ways without regreat........

Aeola~~
 

I had missed my computer everyday~~

I alway think of Tackey and Tsubasa every second in class.......

Never a single millisecond, i will forget them......

Howevver, i really can't see them everyday....my body is too weary to move .....

There is one of the day, i did not take bath and went to bed straight after i had reached home~~~
Of coure i had take a bath after i woke up the next day~~~

I felt really guilty towards all the people in jdorama.com~~~sorry ne~~~

I alway dream about Tackey and Tsubasa~~~
Alway wrote them all over my hands or arms....
Alway day dream about them~~~
Can't put them away even in maths test~~~

I am totally obsessed with them!!!!
I need an antidote to cure this addicitiveness of them!!!!
Save me!!! Help!!!!

Sweetness~

It was just so sweet to see them again!!

I was filled with a sense of sweetness in my hear...

They are supper cute and cool!!!

Love them no matter what~~~

Thanx to sam that i get to know them.....

It was like long ago before she told me about them....

The sweetness still lingered in my heart when i first saw them on stage...

Is that what they call worshipped???

I think it is something called admired~~~

I wonder what is their life like?

R they happy to live such a life?

More importantly, does they noe the sweetness swelling inside me?

No matter what, Tackey and Tsubasa will remain in heart for eternity~~

To Death~~~

It is wonder y so many people had been scared of death~~~

Death is actually the reason y we are born in this world.........

Life is all ended with death.

No matter where we go or what we do.....we just can't run away.....

Death is our life destination and through death we find fun and love

Love is the daughter of death.....

Without death, there will be no cherish, no treasure, no love.

Through death we will love more, cherish more and learn more....trying to make our life becom meanigful while we live.....

All human hate death....

But isn't it ironic that they cherish love, the daughter of death????

Let face the reality that death is at the end of the our live.....while try to live everyday with meaninful objective...

Life is a gift by death....to enjoy all that we deserved....hence

Make ur life filled with meaning starting today!!!!

HI~~~ 

I finally got the time to explore this "wonderful place".
I m going to treat it as a blog and post all my feeling here from now on....

Two tiring weeks had passed....ten more to go....

I am sick of this exam stress!!!!

I am new here~~~ i really don't how this thing work.......blog spot is easier~~~can anybody teach me??

Questions: 

1. What is lj all about??? please tell me in detail.....
2. What can i do about lj??? is this a blog or something???
3. How can i change my web layout???
4. Why is that my friend list got people i don't noe or even added???

THIS WHOLE WEBSITE IS IN A MESS!!!!!!! Maybe an organizer can help~~~~